A friend I have known for many years is no longer here - he appears to have removed himself from this life in a very definite manner. I am upset and I feel extremely sad about his lonely, quietly planned exit.
I do not know what prompted him to feel that there was no no other way forwards but somehow what he has done is entirely at odds with my knowledge/memories of him and his character. It is my hope that his inquest will clarify what pushed him to it.
I cannot fathom that I will not see him again, nor hear his voice, nor open an envelope and see his amazing handwriting, nor joke with him that he and my father were twins separated at birth.
Once I am past the shock, I am just going to miss him terribly.